Having a new puppy is very bittersweet. It just makes my heart yearn even more in having a baby and being a mom. Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom to my 2 fur babies , it just also makes me sad. Am I only good enough to be a mom to animals? Maybe it’s for a reason? I’m not really sure anymore. Ttc is such a stressful experience. By nature, women are natural “mothers” it’s in our nature to take care of others, to pick up a crying baby, to coddle an injured child and so the constant crying of my new puppy is a harsh reminder. Can I just be happy in this moment? Forget about what I don’t have and appreciate what I already have?
I try everyday to remind myself that I am very blessed. I do appreciate everything I have. I have more than most and I know that. I’ve worked really hard all my life to finally have a comfortable life without constant worry. As much as I try to forget about ttc, Aunt Flo shows up with a sucker punch to my uterus..just because she can.
I know people mean well when they say things like “give it to god” or “in gods time” or “just relax” etc. but until you wear these shoes, you’ll never understand what this feels like. I’m not a weak-minded person but I am human and some days you just want to pity yourself. I don’t want people to feel sorry for me or pity me. I’ve been through much worse in my life.
I am MUCH happier since letting go of a 12-year-old job. I am 100% dedicated to my Beachbody business and helping change lives! That gives me hope! That gives me purpose! That gives me an overwhelming sense of accomplishment!
My challengers are what pushes me to get through an hour-long workout when my brain wants to tell my legs its time to stop. My challengers are what get me through those days when I just want to lie in bed and close my eyes! I need to be an example , I need to practice what I preach, even when I just don’t want to.
To all my challengers and anyone else that has entrusted me to help them lose weight and get fit, THANK YOU! I need you just as much as you “need” me. The feeling is mutual and I love you all.
So, I’ll just put my big girl panties on like I always do and keep it moving. Life has no guarantees and life doesn’t owe you anything. You have to go out and work for it!
Are you up for the challenge?